Day Six

I have completed yet another day of not drinking. I haven't had the cravings yet, but that could just be because it is still so soon after my DUI. Although, I just realized that this is probably the longest that I have gone without a drink since I went to Afghanistan over a year ago. But that is a story for another time. I also haven't had a cigarette since either. I am now sleeping through the night with no problem, the first few nights were really rough. I am also dreaming again, which is something that I don't remember doing when I would drink before bed. I used to think that a bottle of wine was just my form of Ambien. The first couple of days after the event I was so stressed about what was going to happen to me that I could hardly sleep at all. But then I realized that whatever the Army does to me couldn't compare to the destructive force that is alcohol and the potential that it has to destroy me.

It is an odd feeling to be completely disgusted with oneself, and yet totally overjoyed with the fact that you have finally admitted to yourself who you truly are. For the first time since I was a kid I feel alive and full of hope at what my life can be. Alcohol has devoured the last 13 years of my life and I refuse to let it have anymore!!

So now I am 30 years old and I feel like my adult life is just beginning. Which is fine, because at least now I will remember everything!!